October 28, 2009

Reality Check.


Okay, wow.
It’s hard to believe this..
I’m going to be 18 in one week from yesterday/today.
November 3rd.


I can’t even wrap my head around this. 
It seems like a week ago I was just that
weird little 7th grader drama club geek who 
dressed funny and only had like 10 friends.

I’ve graduated high school. (It’s a miracle, I have no idea how.)
I’ve applied for jobs.
I’ve yet to get my permit because I don’t want to drive..
but I really need to.
I’m getting my ID on Friday.
I’m working on college courses.
I’m feeling older everyday and I really don’t like it.
I don’t want to be an adult.
I would give anything to be a kid, 
forever.
I think I’m going to audition for SYTYCD Season 8.
Yeah, I know that’s 2 seasons ahead, but I need time to better myself.
I want to do something meaningful to me.
I want to get out of Pennsylvania.
I want to get out of the US and see what I’ve been missing for 18 years.

Part of me is so ready to be an adult;
but the other part of me is so ready to keep being that weird little 7th grader.

Life is so amazing.

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